Monday, September 08, 2014

This Is The Dumbest Blog Post Ever

It's been years since I posted on my blog. My life has changed a lot. I've been through hell. My kids are older now. Princess is 16, Sonshine 14, Bagel 10 and Knuckles 8. I'm divorced, and it's for the better. I no longer have my business; it never fully recovered from CPSIA and some other blows it was dealt. I'm working 3 jobs, one of which is being a Customer Service Manager at a Walmart.

I quit blogging because I felt like I had nothing interesting to say. The woman I was when I started blogging would not recognize the woman I am today as part of her future. Scarred, defeated, broken, betrayed, a shadow of the woman I used to be. I used to be Pinterest Mom, before there was Pinterest. My daughter had two new dresses a year of my own design and make, dresses which won awards at the County Fair. I made my own baby food. I was efficient and creative. I was successful too, but I didn't feel the success. All of that has been burned away in the refiner's fire. I wonder if there is anything left in the ashes worth reading about.

Still, here I am. Bruised and bloodied, but still standing. Somewhere in me, there are stories yet to tell. Sifting through the remains of what used to be my life, perhaps I can reconnect with something that I used to be, something I should have enjoyed while I had the opportunity.