It's been years since I posted on my blog. My life has changed a lot. I've been through hell. My kids are older now. Princess is 16, Sonshine 14, Bagel 10 and Knuckles 8. I'm divorced, and it's for the better. I no longer have my business; it never fully recovered from CPSIA and some other blows it was dealt. I'm working 3 jobs, one of which is being a Customer Service Manager at a Walmart.
I quit blogging because I felt like I had nothing interesting to say. The woman I was when I started blogging would not recognize the woman I am today as part of her future. Scarred, defeated, broken, betrayed, a shadow of the woman I used to be. I used to be Pinterest Mom, before there was Pinterest. My daughter had two new dresses a year of my own design and make, dresses which won awards at the County Fair. I made my own baby food. I was efficient and creative. I was successful too, but I didn't feel the success. All of that has been burned away in the refiner's fire. I wonder if there is anything left in the ashes worth reading about.
Still, here I am. Bruised and bloodied, but still standing. Somewhere in me, there are stories yet to tell. Sifting through the remains of what used to be my life, perhaps I can reconnect with something that I used to be, something I should have enjoyed while I had the opportunity.
I hope you have made it out of the mess and found yourself again.
ReplyDeleteYou were the only math teacher in my entire life that actually made sense to me. Too bad I didn’t have you as a teacher until I got to USU. You did a great job helping my mom mathematical brain finally get it. That was over 20 years ago and I still remember it to this day. You knew why Math was important and how it was used in the world around us. That made a big difference to me. Thanks for the impact you had on my life.
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